My dad and I are not the sort that openly show our emotions toward each other. Typically conservative Chinese. But I do know that he does express his love to me by the littles of things, like giving me a car ride, and the few conversations we share when we are in the car. Thank you pa for being the quiet but yet sturdy pillar of strength :)
What is a Dad?
A dad is someone who wants to
catch you before you fall,
but instead picks you up, brushes you off,
and lets you try again.
A dad is someone who wants to keep you from making mistakes
but instead lets you find your own way,
even though his heart breaks in silence
when you get hurt.
A dad is someone who holds you when you cry,
scolds you when you break the rules,
shines with pride when you succeed
and has faith in you even when you fail.
My father and I were never close since I was a child. As a fish hawker, he was out of the house before I woke up for school, and taking his nap when I came back from school. As a working adult, I now appreciate and am grateful for his frugality to sustain the family. Although he doesn’t say it, his actions are more than enough to prove his love.
Looking at my baby photos, I realised that you have never carried me. Perhaps this is why our relationship is not as close even until today. But nonetheless, I know you care much and have worked so very hard to raise brother and I. I hope one day I am able to repay you and give you a good life in your old age.
Your youngest son
My father is a man of few words, but he has taught me many things through his actions, which are not always big, but genuine and sincere. He’s really someone that I respect and look up to. We may not spend hours together everyday (due to the nature of his work, he has to travel overseas at times), but he would always send random messages home to tell us what he’s doing, that he misses us, and remind me to take care of my siblings, my mum and my grandmother. We have not gone on a family holiday together in years, but I always recalled the many adventures and fun times at the playgrounds, parks and beaches with him, my mum and my siblings, which always remind me to treasure the simple things in life with those you love. My dad is simply irreplaceable, and I love him with all my heart :)
I find it hard to imagine and accept that you’re getting older, and to know that one day you might actually leave us. These few years I’ve heard you complain about how your eyesight is failing you, and sometimes it pains me in that moment to think of how you’ve aged since my first memory of you. But most of the time, within seconds I’m back staring at my iPhone, lost in my own world. I know by saying all this nothing will change, so I’m going to take you out for lunch this Sunday for a start. Hopefully I can start taking care of you the way you have brilliantly taken care of me all this while.